As I’m sat writing this, I’m crying my eyes out. My eyes are
swollen. I’m not coping with things at the moment.
And that’s a common thought I have that comes and goes in
waves. I actually haven’t had it for a while – I’d kinda blocked it out for
ages and thought I was getting better. The thing is, you don’t just get better
from depression. Sure, you can learn to manage it better. You can’t just snap
out of it and wake up and be happy. It doesn’t work like that.
I just want to get it straight – I’m not writing this for
sympathy. I’m just trying to explain how it feels to live with your brain
constantly fighting you. It’s really hard to explain what it’s like living with
depression. Some days I’m fine and I can go about my day and stay as positive
as possible. In fact, being positive and upbeat for others is something I find easy
as pie.
But when it’s bad, it’s bad. I’ve cried to my GP. I’ve sat
in car parks thinking of ways I can stop myself waking up the next day. I’ve
pushed away people I love. I knew it was really bad when my usually quiet and
completely oblivious to anything dad asked me why I was sad all the time. I told him nothing and went to my bedroom, I
didn’t leave for about 12 hours, but that’s not relevant to my blog post.
The only way I can explain what it’s like is being stuck in
a pit that you can’t get out of. No matter how much you try and scramble out,
you’re pulled back in. Everything that worries or upsets you is in the pit with
you. It’s tiring. A lot of people compare it to drowning, with no one to save
you. You get the gist.
Obviously I’m not in a pit. I’m sat in my house on a laptop,
perfectly fine and nowhere near anywhere I’d need to climb out of. But because
of my mental health, I don’t want to be seen. It’s hard to be invisible. I make
up excuses not to see friends. I try and think of ways to call in sick so I can
just stay in bed all day away from people. I constantly think about everything
I've ‘failed’ at in my life. But somehow I manage to prise myself out of bed
and get to work and throw my energy into something else, pretending I’m ok.
I am embarrassed of how I feel. It’s not normal. It’s not
ok. People sometimes look at me like I’m weird. People have told me I’m making
it up. Maybe I am? I dunno.
Maybe you know someone with depression. Maybe you see them
every day at work. Maybe it’s a friend. Maybe it’s a family member. Anyway,
that person you’re thinking of? All they want is someone to be patient with
them.
Show them they aren’t weird. Tell them they have support wherever
they need it. Don’t make them feel guilty if they don’t feel like leaving the
house, but don’t let them trap themselves in bed either. Support them when they
say they are going to speak to a doctor or nurse about their feelings. Let them
talk. Let them cry. Not talking about mental health makes the problem worse;
essentially society has made it that the isolated feel more so by making it difficult
to talk about or just brushing the whole thing under the carpet. You think the
world is more accepting of mental health problems until you actually have them
and are told you’re making it up. How many times have you told someone to snap
out of their bad mood, not knowing why they are in it? There you go.
I am sad tonight but I have friends and family to support me.
I’ve spoken to health care professionals. I am going to be ok, and I am lucky
in that sense. All I ask is that you support me, and support those around you
feeling depressed or crippled with anxiety. They haven’t made it up.
Living with depression, or anxiety or bipolar or whatever it
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that way, it’s just be their friend. A person with depression doesn’t want, or
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don’t realise how much they need you until they start to feel better. Let them
talk to you. Let them talk it out. Shit, you probably don’t want to hear what’s
going to come out of their mouth but maybe once they’ve voiced their feelings
they will process it better. Talking about and addressing the problem, is the first step to solving it. It’s a simple gesture, and it can be the
difference between someone hiding away or getting out of bed and facing the
day.
I can really relate to this and I hope you know you're not alone. I got through times of being okay and coping and other times of complete loneliness. Lately I'm doing well but I can feel it surfacing again.
ReplyDeletePeople aren't understanding and that's truly heartbreaking. I'm happy to hear you've seen health care professionals as I've not done that for a few years now - maybe it's time to try again.
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Lots of love,
Sarah xo // See the stars
Thank you lovely, you are a good friend! xxx
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